I miss u.
Dec 21, 2014
Don't know why I feel like crying today.
Maybe because I'm not so well.
You know, when someone is sick they definitely want their special someone to take care of them. To be pampered by them.
I wish. I could turn back time. Asking for his hands from his mom. Maybe if I do that last time. I'll know how his mom feel about me. Whether she likes me or not. I'll try to convince her that I really want her son.
Oh my. Why I still remember the past. It's so not easy for me to move on.
Dec 17, 2014
Dec 12, 2014
Bahagia rasa bila tengok baby org lain.
Bila dah tengok, senyum sorang2.
And then tetiba mengalir airmata. Wondering, when is my turn to have those cute little baby.
I want them too.
Nak rasa there's a life in my tummy.
Nak rasa caring for them.
Taking care of them.
I just have to be patience.
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 2, 2014
Nov 13, 2014
I'm tired searching for the right guy.
I just want someone so ordinary like you. Yang akan care for me. Only me. Yang sincere. Ikhlas mencintai sy.
I want you. But I can't. I will never have you.
Because you don't want me anymore.
Things doesn't go right in my life. I am a mess. Really messed up.
Nov 4, 2014
Memang duit adalah segala-galanya. Tapi selagi sy sndiri bkerja. Sy xfikir hidup akan susah selagi kita bgantung harap & tawakkal pada Allah.
Yang penting, sy perlukan seseorg yg boleh jaga sy & bagi kbahagiaan pada sy.
Money is not everthing for me. Selagi mana kita rajin.
Nov 1, 2014
Oct 12, 2014
Oct 10, 2014
Betapa beruntungnya kamu ada ayah yang sentiasa prihatin pada anak-anaknya.
Betapa beruntungnya kamu ada ayah yang sentiasa setia dengan ibumu.
Betapa beruntungnya kamu.
Betapa beruntungnya kamu ada lelaki yang bersungguh-sungguh mahu jadikan kamu isterinya.
Betapa beruntungnya kamu dapat mengahwini orang yang kamu sukai.
Betapa beruntungnya kamu dikurniakan cahaya mata yang dapat menyerikan kehidupanmu & ibubapamu.
Betapa beruntungnya kamu.
Betapa beruntungnya kamu.
Betapa cemburunya aku.
I want a husband who will do anything for his family. Without us asking.
And we won't ask.
A husband who will love his family so very dearly.
And won't leave us in uncomfortable situation.
I want someone who really care.
Oct 7, 2014
Sep 21, 2014
You know what I love doing these days?
I love going out alone and driving alone.
While driving alone I can express my true feeling without having to feel any embarrassment.
I can cry. A lot of crying makes me feel better. But I'm doing it too much lately. They're not doing any good aren't they.
Sep 20, 2014
Sep 17, 2014
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 4, 2014
Aug 28, 2014
Aug 19, 2014
The elders is thinking bad about you.
They say you're a liar.
I can't do anything.
I don't want to think or say bad about you, about others.
Like you always tell me to.
I just know that everything you gave me was sincere.
Aug 13, 2014
Saya rasa saya dah patah hati.
I feel it is hard for me to fall in love again.
I don't want to care and I'm not hoping.
I want it to come to me. I don't want to find it anymore.
I'm too tired.
Saya xnak rasa sakit.
Saya xnak rasa sedih.
Saya xnak org buat saya menangis.
I'm just too tired.
Aug 5, 2014
Aug 4, 2014
I terAccident last week at Bentong on my way to kampong.
I dah cuba drive dengan selamat and secermat mungkin. Tapi mungkin Allah mahu menguji tahap kesabaran hambaNya ini. Mahu menguji dengan sedikit dugaan, bila dirasakn yang hambaNya ini terlalu senang.
Alhamdulillah. Now my 'ple has back to normal. And it cost 720 to repair him.
Sorry 'ple. I will try my best to protect you. You are what I have for my future.
When others busy talking & planning about marriage. I keep myself busy with all sort of things that I like, things that I love doing.
I don't want to get jealous with others happiness. But sometimes I just can't help it.
That's why I always try to not mind their business.
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 1, 2014
Jul 26, 2014
Jul 19, 2014
Today I gave him my last msg.
Saying that I'm sorry and can accept the fact that he wasn't meant to be mine. I did say thanks to him for all he gave me all this 7 years. And I want to be his friend if he want me too.
But I know he will not reply my msg anymore. So I should stop disturb someone's only son. It will be hard for him if I continue acting pathetic.
How to mend my broken heart?
Jul 18, 2014
Jun 4, 2014
Jun 1, 2014
May 29, 2014
He's not mine anymore...
We break up.
& what makes me sad is I'm the one who ask for it.
I cannot stand his mother doesn't like me.
Not exactly doesn't like me, but she doesn't want his son to marry peninsular woman because of distance.
She might be afraid that her son will leave her.
Staying far from her because he's the only son.
I love him.
I don't know if I can find a good guy like him.
All I want to do now is seeking for His Blessing. InsyaAllah.
He knows whats the best for me.
Apr 20, 2014
Apr 18, 2014
Mar 17, 2014
Mar 10, 2014
Jan 23, 2014
Jan 21, 2014
Jan 20, 2014
I cry again last night because of what my mom said...
Mungkin ini adalah balasan buatku sebab selalu buat ibuku menangis keranaku sebelum ini..
Aku hanya ingin restu dia.
Tidak sama sekali aku mahu menderhaka.
Aku yakin Diam dan Doa akan lembutkan hati dia untuk merestui kami.
May Allah ease our way to Jannah.